We came to Sacramento in 2017 after 8 months on the road. Now that chapter of 8 years came to close, and I'm back on the road again, homeless. I stuffed so my belongings into a storage yesterday, did the move-out walk through with Dexter this morning and then drove to Kirkwood. Thus started my life of ski bum for 3 months. Now I'm at the parking lot of Tesla supercharged in Meyers after skiing 2 hours and then gorging on a burrito that weighed in at 2 pounds.
In 2017, I was with my then-wife. This time I'm alone. Maybe that was why I felt nostalgic and maudlin. And feeling old too. Well, I'm old; I have received my Medicare card last month. But feeling old often does not have to do with being old. It's the feeling of being on the death bed more than anything else. The fatigue from moving and packing for the life in the road may have something to do with it. And having no home to go back to. Once I got on the slope, however, the melancholy quickly disappeared and I was grinning. The sight of white hills have that magical quality. And it proves what we are nothing more than our 3 pound universe.
Speaking of fatigue, the 8 years made a huge difference. In 2017, I wasn't even able to load the car with the stuff we were taking on the road. We had to then take 2 days off in a hotel to recuperate I got it all loaded, probably twice as much stuff this time. Then I drove to Kirkwood and skied for 2 hours. That's how far I came.
That is not too say that fatigue is no longer an issue. It still is. I skied for 2 hours 5 days ago. The packing for the move after that was a struggle. The struggle lasted till I got on the slope this afternoon. That was an excess fatigue accompanied with drained feeling that is a signature of CFS. It's not the complete depletion. But the feeling of excess fatigue was still there even if it wasn't completely disabling as it used to. It's the final 5% of CFS. That deleted feeling then disappeared when I got on the slope and now it feels more like regular, comfortable post-exercise fatigue.
Anyway, my plan is to spend a week out two skiing Kirkwood, Heavenly and Northstar. Then I'll drive North to Whistler. Another week there and then I'll scoot over to Colorado and spend a month there. February will come to close then and I'll start trekking East to NYC. I don't know how long I'll spend in NYC yet. I could spend a year before coming back to the West Coast. But I have the storage contact for only a year, so I may have to come back and take care of it. We'll see how it unfolds.
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